The speed of sound

This is more or less a continuation of the last post. Girls. Women. Professor Baldwin is always encouraging us to explain and talk about the opposite sex. Why we do the things we do, how we find our mates etc. how our new culture embraces these changes. Would I call myself a womanizer? No. Do I love women? yes. There's something so egotistical in my pursuit of them though, it frightens me. I on more than one occasion; labeled it the bane of my existence. A strong and laughable choice of words at the time but the closer I come to fufilling my dreams the more that statement scares me. It's not physical as far as I know so far, it's more of a stroke. Of the ego. Never been a fan of incredible power, vast riches or anything like that. But the power of women is incredibly alluring. Maybe because of nurture? Perhaps when I would make an earnest attempt at a girl I would be teased of being a ladies man, just as every 5 year old kid would be when an adult found out about it. I would shy away from it but secretly love that attention. If that happens enough times it could provoke a certain mind-set.

Now for the first time with my new found knowledge and readings, attitude and style. I feel like I could put all these thngs into practice. My thoughts and fantasies are becoming tangible, and I'm already beginning to feel dull and predicatble. You know the advice for a situation like this? Dig deeper, see how deep it goes. Everything I read and I still feel like the biggest thing I got out of it is confidence. I fel like every girl wants me, and not in a cockyh way. I know, I know how could those two things go together, it just doesn't make sense. But a lot of thigns don't make sense right now. But maybe that's the way I like things, I'll make my own sense. In Sam's world. My Silver Tongue.

polishing,

Sam E.