Persist

Is what I'm doing. Is that even spelled right? I can't give now. Missed the group meeting again, I have to make more moves for my future. I guess I did need the sleep after all and without my health I won't be able to do anything. I've always wanted o make a portfolio, it's so professional, I remember my Mom's and the idea that I would have one now at my age is both frightening and exciting. I can't be scared of my success, get out fo the shadow and find my own light. I know this will be rewarding if I put the effort in. I still haven't come up with a concept for my video, what could it possibly be. Hopefully I'll have a lot more free time with what happened with last night. Is my fear projecting onto someone else? I want someone else to do it just so I could keep my mouth and hands clean. To save face in every sense of the word. That's not something I want to do but I have doubts, everyone does. I have to learn to deal with them and triumph when I have them or who am I really?

After All,

Sam E.