Machina

Don't know how I did it. I stayed up until 8 am yesterday. Slept for 2 hours and then went to bed at 3 after partying. Maybe this whole process really is showing me that I can go with out sleep. I'm tired right now but I'd never thought I'd look at home work for relaxation. It used to be the thing that got me the most frustrated. Now I just want to take a nice break. Think things out and write. Perhaps it's the kind of free thought assignments I have now. Is the bane of my existence really that strong? To compel me to do something like that. I met a random girl I started talking to on the train. My confidence has went way up but my openers are a little off. That's 3 this week...Should I go for 4 tonight. I really want to put my work first....I met my sister's side of the family. they're really nice people and have a great amount of hospitality. There are very few things that should be feared in this life. And I don't encounter them on a daily basis. Most people don't. Anxiety stress and many other negative feelings stem from fear. Fear of punishment, embarasment. I know I didn't spell that right but I'm not scared, nobody reads this after all..

Sitting by the dock of the bay,

Sam E.