Rep

utation?resent?ublican? Maybe a little bit of all of those. Gotta figure out these money difficulties, my mom always said money problems were never a problem. Just a matter of getting more or putting it from one place to another. Speaking of, my CD is done this week as well. I'm adjusting...to responsibility to growing up for lack of a better word. It's not something to be afraid of and I think I'm maturing quite nicely. All I have to do right now is get a decently good GPA and show it to my family and friends and I'm considered a success. But If I don't then what do I have to show for all the nothing I've done, for all the video-games I've played and parties I went to. Which In reality isn't that much. I can't make excuses about my postulation or any of the other things that might have gotten in my way for me getting good grades this semester. I just have to try and salvage whatever is left and do my best.

best around,

Sam E.

Continuing

I'm continuing with my blog. Still got a whole quarter of the way to go. I'm proving successful in what I wanted but it's a struggle. I focus on one and the other falls behind. I still have to find my balance, my middle path. I switched my room to suite, and my suite mates are Alan and Chris. I just hope the other person isn't an RA. I think there's plenty of good times to be had and I think the living situation is a step in the direction of the real world. The whole concept of sharing a bathroom and kitchen and these living spaces, really seems worthwile and makes me want to come back next semester. Plus there's a lot of distractions on this side of campus with the Lambdas here and all. Fun, but a distraction nonetheless. I also payed my deposit and bought my plane ticket to Japan, it's official. I'm going!

going...gone

Sam E.

70

It's hard to believe it's 70 posts already. Just thinking of that gives me a weird feeling. Accomplishment for my task, fear that the semester is almost over and eagerness to finish. I have more work to do in this class besides keeping up with my blog, I still have to work on some models and keep with everything I have to do like processing and movies. It's funny how things can be useful later, I'm going to make my resume with the wave. I really appreciate my professor for making me do that all that time ago. That's a sense of practical work that has really payed off, or will soon. I heard they check blogs for jobs. Is mine up to par?

curious,

Sam E.

Monkey town

Falling behind on my blogs there's been a lot to catch up on. Monkey town was great. I came in not knowing anything and jumping in head first into something offered to me. I don't know how rewarding it was for the sense of my future but it was good fun and I did learn some stuff and some things about myself too. I VJ'd, I was introducing videos and music and images. I haven't worked it a while and it felt like work but in a good way. People wanted something of me, they relied on me and looked to me for an answer that they needed. I was sweating and it was good to have that feeling again. To be busy in a short sense rather than a long one. I say this in the sense of how I'm busy because there is always a paper or something else I could be writing but obviously I don't. But it's good to be busy for a short period of time, clock out and then go home. I find it a lot less stressful. I want to work on my resume.

working,

Sam E.

preview of fighting entropy

My first movie

cheers,

Sam E.

Renegade

This might be the last blog for a little while. Professor Baldwin says that we have to make graphic novels in place of the blogs. He want 7 graphic novels. I can't just randomly do them about family or something broad, I need a panel to jump off of. A push in the right direction and I'll start running...or soaring. I know it. I'm going to think of and brain storm some concepts quickly. Murder mystery, more mythological based entries. In Japanese, chinese or any other mythology since I briefly covered some Greek ones. I'll improve it with a title page and a little more back story. Creation I think is the best thing a person can do with them self. Making a piece of their self in a different medium for everyone to view and take a part in.

creating,

Sam E.

time to say good bye

Late. Very late. So much to do. I'll get it done in the morning. I just wanted to say I got something done but I've only done two blogs. I'm going to keep going. Am I becoming more of what I want to be now? Everyday I feel it closer? I'm growing in the way I want but losing in other ways. School is important, get your head in the game. A friend of mine had a tattoo of the golden ratio, I learned about that in class. I felt slightly accomplished. I want that feeling, I don't want to struggle, I want to be more responsible. I don't want to be fighting this up hill battle all the time. Like Atlas...what a terrible fate. of course now we know it's gravity but pshhhh.

ethos,

Sam E.

Week-end

What an eventful week end. I missed out doing a lot of blogs and I'm behind again. Where's my drive? I know where it is, in a different subject. Not a school related one but one that involves a lot of learning none the less. Which is more rewarding I wonder. One might have instant results---not really. They both involve a lot of work but one I have an intense interest in and the other, is interesting. I shouldn't be focusing on one or the other, I mean one of the things I learned is if you have the confidence you can know when to say no and when other things are more important. keep that in mind Sam. You have a very big week coming up with all this monkey town stuff. Follow your dreams, don't be scared of your own success.

get em' tiger

Sam E.

Blogging

Behind on the blogs and in class. Professor Baldwin said we could subsitute a blogs for manga or comics in the blogs instead. That sounds like a great idea and I am always trying to extend my portfolio or resume. I usually need that push in the right directiona dn then I could start running. I have some really great ideas that I want to get off the ground. I know when I have that inspiration and drive I could do anything with creativity. I have a great idea for an app for the app store. An application that teaches you how to be a man. I would be giving my ideas on where to shop what to watch and how to think to be a man in the 21st century. I have 10 categories lined up, each very in-depth but also very loose. I like to think of this idea as, staying on the outside of the inner loop. Not too much of one thing, finding the middle path. Balance

there's much to it,

Sam E.

1up

Another life in video-games. Sounds a bit melo dramatic for the title of a blog, I'm picturing being interpreted as wanting another life. Which isn't the case, I think of it more as a revitalization. But therein lies the problem--interpretation, sometimes can lead to great opinions and thought and other times it can be used to further ignorance. Elias my brother just came back from Iraq, he slept over my tiny dorm room. We reminsced about old times, played video-games, told stories, talked about girls and he slept on the couch. He taught me some martial arts stuff and I told him I would tell him about sex since he hasn't had it in over a year. It's really good to have him back, he changed a little bit but that's something you have to expect. I still see the same guy I grew up with for the past 19 years. He's family.

Family is important to have, I didn't put it at any value before but now that I...don't have a big family on this earth.


You are,

Sam E.

Big

It was always a favorite movie of mine, a young boy wishes he was older and bigger. He gets his wish and immediately has to deal with all the problems of finding food, shelter and a job as an adult. Along with his friend he gets a great job and conquers part of the business end of the toy and entertainment world and lives out a lot for his dreams. he reluctantly goes back to being little. this gives us the fantasy that most of us desire--to be older when we're young and to be younger when we're old. I wonder about those things a lot lately. How has my age progressed, when will I stop being young, or youthful? Will I ever feel the oppression of society that forces you to grow up? Or rather grow down. Either way I just have to see where this road is going to take me but have to find my own way along.

that's all,

Sam E.

Corn Flakes

Professor Baldwin said I should be doing my blog even when I'm eating my corn flakes on sunday. It is sunday but I haven't ate my corn flakes. Today was so momentous and I'll be delving into detail in all the blog days I missed. I read one of the plays I had to but otherwise didn't do any work that I had to. But thats not really much to do, what should I do to reduce this dissonance? I read a quote earlier today that I discussed with kerry, Doubt is not the end of knowledge. It's the beginning. I found it to be completely true. Do I really exist, is the sky really blue? An unexamined life isn't worth living. David always brings up a counter point for that but I can't remember it now, a bit bias perhaps but who cares. Life's short.

get money,

Sam E.